Pity party!

Tonight I am sulking and having my very own pity party! Don't worry, I waited til the kids were all sleeping, but it was rough. Kevin cried no less than ten times because A- his Dad is gone and B- his Dad went to Idaho with out him! And then I answered nearly 20 questions concerning death and where Grandpa Gray is at. (he is better known as Grandpa in the white Camper because Grandma and Grandpa Gray babysat Kevin and Julia in Las Vegas two years ago in their 5th wheel.) The funniest being, "so they will bury Grandpa Gray's body and then when no one is looking Jesus will dig him up and take him to Heaven?" Apparently our explaining of such things has been as clear as mud! Hopefully some of that mud settles tonight and things are less murky in Kevin's four year old brain. Nights like this make me grateful for Kevin's inquisitiveness, he doesn't settle for answers on the surface, he wants to know the ins and outs and the ups and downs of everything!!! Tonight I'm grateful for our deep conversation, our extra snuggles, and that I'm blessed to be his Mom!

Tonight, I am also grateful for the scriptures. I spent an hour or so reading in the Book of Mormon tonight. What great comfort I have in knowing the truthfulness of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. The power of the Atonement is so strong and so real and is such a great comfort when dealing with things of this nature, as well as in all of my trials.

I thought I had pulled it together and things were good when I got these two adorable pictures of Uncle Cody meeting our two sweet nieces, Emmy and McCall for the first time, then I realized a good cry would do me good! ;) and now I feel tons better!

I feel very blessed to have the family I do. I am such a lucky girl to have married into such a fabulous family as well! My thoughts and prayers and my heart are with the Gray family today!

I am blessed and I know it!